“I didn’t know just what to say / While watching you wither away”

Speaking of songs about death and loss: Stage Four by Touché Amoré. What a perfectly sad and heartwrenching record. Shortly after its release in 2016 I had saved it to my Spotify albums, but never took the time to listen to it. Then a few months ago I read that it was about Jeremy Bolm’s mum dying of cancer and immediately pressed play to take part in his pain. Need I say I loved the songs from the very first second? On the second track, New Halloween, Jeremy sings “I haven’t found the courage to listen to your last message to me”. Then on the last track, Skyscraper, the mother’s last message to her son is included. Something trivial about going to the pharmacy, because life is unfair like that. Your last message is never a wise one because you have no idea you won’t have another chance to say something. My mum’s last text message to me was just something about her and dad having arrived at their home after we’d all been on a daytrip together. I wrote “thanks for today!” She died three days later. I can’t recall whether I spoke to her on the phone between the text message and seeing her lying dead on the bed or not.

Touché Amoré – Flowers and You

Touché Amoré – Rapture

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